Maybe this is the wrong approach. There is opportunity, true, to embrace death in my own fashion; but do I thereby win? Is blinking out with a minimum of discomfort and maximum dignity the only available goal? It seems meager.<\/p>\n
Quincy Jones may not have the answers; but Western allopathy is not the final word on healthcare, and is hardly the most venerable tradition. A Taoist or Ayurvedic healer might have a different opinion.<\/p>\n
Acupuncture. Spirit healing. Orgone boxes. Peyote ceremonies. Cleansing herbs. Colon hydrotherapy. Full-coven spells. Antioxidants. Alien intervention. Cloning. Cryogenics. Computer storage of my brain matrix.<\/p>\n
Hope! Opiate of the soul! Just an idea, really. The willingness to believe in a pleasant future, in spite of all the evidence. Faith. Not my strong suit. Such a temporary feeling.<\/p>\n
I am alone. This seems inappropriate.<\/p>\n
I must call Llewellyn Reece. I scroll to that number and press \u201csend.\u201d<\/p>\n
No answer. Chime, and greeting. Protracted beep. \u201cIt\u2019s Victor. I need to talk to you. Please call me. It\u2019s important.\u201d An empty feeling, talking to a voicemail, when what you really need is a human. I start the engine. May as well head home. Home is where the drugs are.<\/p>\n
I think we\u2019ll get things started by dropping, deep, deep into a K-hole. Half a vial should do the trick. I think I still have that much Japanese Red Label; if not, I have three of Anasket and a Green Label Ketacet. Maybe even a plastic seal with a quarter V or so of Hydrochloride, the creme de la creme.<\/p>\n
I flip on the radio. \u201cCome on baby, don\u2019t fear the Reaper-<\/em>\u201d<\/p>\n Exasperated, I hit the search button as I light a cigarette.<\/p>\n \u201cAnd when I die, and when I\u2019m gone, there\u2019ll be one child born in this world\u00a0 to carry on, to carry on-<\/em>\u201d<\/p>\n Search.<\/p>\n \u201cKnock, knock knockin\u2019 on Heaven\u2019s door…<\/em>\u201d<\/p>\n Search.<\/p>\n \u201cGoodbye life, goodbye sweet caress, I think I\u2019m going to die, bye-bye my life goodbye<\/em>.\u201d<\/p>\n Enough of this shit. And they play nothing but love songs after you\u2019ve had your heart broken. Radio stations have an uncanny knack for playing what I don\u2019t want to hear. I pop in a Ziggy Marley tape as I torch a spliff. That should lift my spirits. Irie, mon.<\/p>\n \u201cAll things have come to an end, now I be mindful of prayer…I\u2019m goin away\/To a place where there is no night or day-<\/em>\u201d Surrendering, I switch off the stereo and drive in silence.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Maybe this is the wrong approach. There is opportunity, true, to embrace death in my own fashion; but do I thereby win? Is blinking out with a minimum of discomfort and maximum dignity the only available goal? It seems meager. Quincy Jones may not have the answers; but Western allopathy is not the final word […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[3,7],"tags":[132,140,139,59,136,141,137,142,16,63,138,66,134,135,33,47,133],"class_list":["post-47","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-transmigrant-blues","category-transmigrant-blues-round-4","tag-acupuncture","tag-alien-intervention","tag-antioxidants","tag-book","tag-cleansing-herbs","tag-cloning","tag-colon-hydrotherapy","tag-cryogenics","tag-desert-trance","tag-destiny","tag-full-coven-spells","tag-metaphysical","tag-orgone-boxes","tag-peyote-ceremonies","tag-reincarnation","tag-science-fiction","tag-spirit-healing"],"aioseo_notices":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.amanamission.com\/transblues\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/47","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.amanamission.com\/transblues\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.amanamission.com\/transblues\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.amanamission.com\/transblues\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.amanamission.com\/transblues\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=47"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"http:\/\/www.amanamission.com\/transblues\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/47\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":96,"href":"http:\/\/www.amanamission.com\/transblues\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/47\/revisions\/96"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.amanamission.com\/transblues\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=47"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.amanamission.com\/transblues\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=47"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.amanamission.com\/transblues\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=47"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}